At 44 years old it seems like these types of laughs are hard to come by. It's not that I'm sad or anything, its just that nothing really makes me laugh uncontrollably anymore. Maybe its because of fear that I don't laugh like this anymore. To be completely honest I'm worried that I will wet my pants! Or maybe it's old age, am I too mature for a good loud outrageous laugh?
I've been putting a lot of though into the laughing business. When I was a teenager I laughed till my belly ached almost all the time. I mean seriously, everything was funny back then! When I was in my twenties I'm pretty sure I laughed like this- well at least I think so? In my thirties I'm certain that I laughed like this at least a few times... But i just can't remember it! I feel like if it was that funny I would definitely remember it! I should be able to recall an episode like this with great detail, especially if it was so funny that I couldn't contain myself.
What is wrong with me people? Should I blame it on memory loss, early onset Alzheimer's, maturity, WHAT? My Grandma who is a dear old 83 say's she has the disease CRS (can't remember shit). Is this syndrome hereditary? I really should be able to remember these precious moments! Where have they gone?
I now know why so many people encourage keeping a journal. It would have been so easy for me to look back and recall a joyful, pants wetting memory if I had just written a few of them down! UGGH! I'm so frustrated and disappointed with myself!
So here is one for the books... Yesterday I was giving my pregnant daughter a deep gorgeous spray tan in my master shower. I know, your wondering why my half poly kid needs a spray tan- right? Well doesn't that just get you giggling already? She's standing there naked while I'm spraying away and just when you think the spray is the perfect mist it starts sending out splotches of dark, really dark brown everywhere to give her a deep golden speckled look. It's was looking kinda cheetah like. hahah She's clearly upset but I get to laughing at her! My giggles start to roll into laughs and the next thing you know tears are filling my eyes, she's now laughing probably at the site of me, tears start to roll down my cheeks and my pants become soaked! The laughing becomes uncontrollable and I 'm on my knees trying to suck in some air. She is laughing too. Probably not as much as I am-lets face it I was laughing at her. But she was laughing none the less. She was probably hurting because shes pregnant and laughing way to hard in her condition. Plus it probably wasn't as funny to her, or maybe it was, I'm sure I looked a mess sitting there on the rug with wet pants trying to breath. In the end, the speckled spray tan didn't look so bad it all kinda blended in. But the bottom of her feet are black because I kept having her move around so I could get the best spraying angles. Clearly I'm an amateur when it comes to spray tans. LOL But this is one of those joyful memories I want to freeze in time. Mother and Daughter laughing uncontrollably at each other. I hope I get a few more of these before I die. It was the best 5 or so minutes ever!
Laugh my friends!
